first and foremost....

Andrew Bird: Heretics


since i have yet to find an option like that, i'll start every post with what i'm listening to at the moment. mostly because i have an exceptional taste in music and i like sharing it.

i've felt like i needed to get back into blogging for a while now; i always feel like i have so much to write about. not that i am that interesting of a person because....well....i'm not. i just like somewhere to put my thoughts down and if you care to read? go right ahead. if i say something you don't like, before commenting remind yourself that this is MY blog, not your place to start a controversy or preach YOUR opinions. you wanna do that? get a blog :)

THAT SAID, let's jump right in, shall we?


i feel that in just the past few days/weeks things have sort of come together for me in that my life is taking such a revolutionary change it's silly not to blog about it.
i'm trying to get back into school in the fall. i still want to get my degree in pharmacy, and it's my own fault for not toughing it out the first time. but, without going into too much detail as to why i'm not in school/have a degree or two already...life got in the way. i'm not stupid. i didn't FAIL OUT, contrary to apparent popular belief. life just....got in the way for a while and school went on the back burner. anywho, as fate may have it, a new pharmacy school is underway in the area and i have an appointment next week to talk to admissions. i hope it goes well.
my friend and roommate nick has bought a house (quite an endeavor of his own) and is moving out and....i'm having my boyfriend, alex, move in. this should be happening in about a month's time. i'm very...excited. this will be the first time co-habitating with a significant other, so i'm not sure what to expect. we do butt heads from time to time. okay, a lot! we're both headstrong and stubborn, however i'm much more laid back where as he is very (for lack of a better word) uptight, but not necessarily in a bad way. he's uptight in all the ways that i am lackadaisical, and i try to get him to relax and approach situations in a way that he doesn't get so stressed (/angry), so we kind of balance each other out in that way. we've been together almost 9 months now.
so now, we are ready to take the next step and see how it goes. it's been interesting so far, trying to plan the move and the apartment changes. we're going to be painting and whatnot, getting new furniture (this includes the couch of my dreams which we've already procured by some mystical craigslist intervention), redecorating. i'm getting exhausted just thinking about it. but it's going to be worth it in the end i hope.
i'm doing the best i've ever been with money which is weird to me. alex set me up on a budget and i use this fantastic app on my iPod to keep track of all my banking and cashflow. i haven't been able to save really but that will come in time. i'm paying all my bills, i have food in the house, gas in my tank, and i feel good about my money situation for the first time in a long time. now that those things are set i have to work at saving and paying back my dad.
speaking of food...which we kinda weren't....i took one of the biggest steps i've ever taking for improving my life and i went to a weight loss specialist yesterday and today started the "diet." i use the term "diet" loosely because that's not really what it is; it involves a diet, sure, but it's so much more including a literal lifestyle overhaul for myself. day one has gone excellently, and i hope i can continue. actually, i KNOW i will continue that's not a doubt. i am in a place right now where i am so unhappy with myself and my body i really have no choice. something HAD to be done, and now it is. i'm very excited at the prospect of losing weight; not because i'll be thinner, but because i want so badly to be more healthy. i'm having problems with my knees and back (which is in part due to having two jobs and standing on my feet 13 hours a day three days a week) and i'm just...unhappy.

i'm glad things in my life are changing so drastically. i have this giddy feeling when i think about the future and i hope everything keeps falling into place!